time flies, people change, love change, everything changes.
but why did i pin high hopes? sigh..
i duno why as well. is this gonna be e end?
i duno.. noth more to do and say.
so much that i have done.
obviously it's not been appreciated and noticed.
so why i do this for? foolishness? LOL..
god knows why. haha.
forget it.. wad may come, comes.
wad may happen, happens.
jus rmb the past and forget the pain.
haha. god bless me!!





~nic^^

it's 20th november 2008, thursday

yea.. it's been so long since i've blogged..
feeelllll a lil awarkard to blogg again..
everyday have been pretty busy for me..
after o levels everything seems to be of a slower pace..
like more time with my shermaine n stuff..
my dearest grandfather have gone to a place far far away..
where he will no longer have to suffer..
no longer have to worry abt any shit on earth..
n finally lead a carefree like..
because of prom i missed e forth day of e wake..
feel bad.. but it can't be helped can it??
anw, things have been happening..
life goes on.. life must be lived happily..
well.. i duno.. i'm feeling kinda sad now..
u noe.. jus stuff tat makes ppl sad n depressed..
share a gd news with all of you wan??
i'm sure you do wna noe..
i'm gg to go to kl n genting with dear n her family tmr..
well.. i'm excited.. hope we reali will enjoy ourselves a lot los..
noth matters.. i jus spend some time with my gf!!
noth matters le.. i've not been spending a lot of time with her cause of e wake..
n she's so thoughtful.. came to e wake to accompany me..
i told her not to cause i scared she will be lonely cause of e prayers..
but she said it's okay.. she jus wans to spend time with me..
she even bought herbal tea for me cause i was unwell..
so happy to hear tat laa. this kinda gf where to find los:)
onli one in e whole wide world.. n i'm so glad i've found her..
n to have her in my life n always by my side..
yea.. i'm contented with it..



BABY:
let's not be unhappy anymore..
let's not be quarrel-some anymore..
let's not be stubborn no more..
let's not be petty no more..
let's not be anything tat's bad alright!?
cause noth in this world is as important as YOU!!
onli you lea.. hhaas.. loveyou dear!!










~nic^^

~HAPPY 6MONTHS DEAR!!

happy 6months dear~



woots~ time reali flies.. 6months jus pass in e flash..
in like a blink of an eye!!
hhaas.. reali reali great actually.. enjoy yr company a lot!!
everyday with yoy is reali exciting.. hhaas..
anw, 23august is e big day man..
woke up early in e morn, did my surprise for dear, den ate breakfast..
den went home change bathe n prepare le den went to meet dear..
at woodlands.. hhaas.. once i saw dear, i gave her a big surprise le..
it's FLOWERS!! hhaas.. it's reali nice actually..
den we went to fareast!! hhaas.. went there to find a shop named thinkwhite..
wa.. recommended by TYJ.. thanks..
but e shop was freaking difficult to find laa.. zZz..
like hidden or sth laa.. walked past it also almost din notice laa..
den dear told me.. yea.. den we went in to look..
hhaas.. after talkin for so long, you still duno wad i'm lookin for right?!?
it's rings.. hhaas.. yea.. we looked for sometime..
den finally settled to 2 pairs.. but e one still caught our eyes!!
hhaas.. den asked for e price laa..
wa.. so ex laa.. hhaas.. e salesgal said "wa!! your tastes so gd, chose e 2 most ex rings in e shop"
hhaas.. e 2 we actually took a liking to was e most costly amongst all..
yea.. did e calculations n bought it.. cost a big bomb..
die le.. i'm never gonna let my mum check my posb card.. or i'm so dead:)
hhaas.. it added up to 200bucks laa.. but it's okay laa..
dear so sweet.. she ask me don buy cause too ex le..
but you r my one n onli love lea.. you're priceless la..
so price don reali matter to me.. hhaas..
den after tat we went to sentosa.. at vivo, ate our dinner first..
ramen ten.. ate a ramen called " spicy spicy ramen"
crazy laa.. it reali lives up to it's name laa..
for spicy lovers, please try tat.. i ate till i teared:(
yea.. den bought tidbits n stuff den went to sentosa..
it was drizzling laa.. but we played volleyball.. hhaas..
so fun to play with dear.. but tiring though.. hhaas..
yea.. lots of things laa.. hhaas..
reali had a great day with you baby.. loves*



you reali make me feel as though my live is lived fully..
you always puts me to cloud nine..
wow!! you're great n i'm never gonna live without you..
i'm never gonna find another gf like you ever!!
i'm so gonne treasure you for e rest of my life laa!! :):)
i LOVEYOU, baby..










~nic^^

sat:
hmmm i went out with kf n benson(my bros)
den ate n stuff, took bus to bugis..
ate our dinner den tryin to go haji lane..
wa.. damn diff to find laa..
so nvm.. went to bussorah street..
i noe there better as i went there be4..
hhaas.. den we still took a few wrong advices n got ourselves lost..
den in e end.. finally found it..
went in to sisha.. zZz.. it was bored..
no atmosphere n everythin..
den e fan so strong.. cant do any "Os"
hhaas.. den our drinks..
hhaas.. mine was e best amongst them all..
mine was a yougurt drink mixed with milk..
but it was totally yougurt.. not bad actually..
benson's fresh fruit punch taste like onli watermelon blended..
den kf's tasted like malaysia's chewing gum..
totally disgusting los!! OMG..
anw though din enjoy e sisha.. enjoyed their company..
reali funny(lotsa man talk)
hhaas.. den after tat we went to meet zhi wen..
hhaas.. erm den we pei benson take mrt back to amk..
but kf, zw n me took to yck mrt..
now this festival, my mum banned me from comin back late:(
den we went to buy alcohol n drank at my hse downstairs..
hhaas.. zw so funny.. vommit his whole intestine out..
cause be4 meetin us he drank.. he's friends bday..
drank on an empty stomach..
so he din drink.. me n kf drank onli..
we were smart.. not on empty stomach.. hhaas..
den we all went home..




DEAR:
i'm so sry i couldn't meet you..
as u noe.. my mum now don let me go home late..
no choice.. i missed you lots los..
but at least this e first time i did this onli..
anw, i'm sry.. loveyou k..










~nic^^

OUR LOVELY 5th MONTH:)

HAPPY 5th MONTH LOVE:)

5months have passed in a blink of an eye..

with never ending joys n sorrows..

at least we r always there with each other..

it's great.. had steamboat at marina square..

was okay.. but small portion though..

anw, did many fun things tgt n stuff..

enjoyable.. reali true.. enjoyed it..

sry for this late post:( no time to post things..

yea.. anw, i LOVEYOU ..

life will never be e same w/o you..

~nic^^

things were bad yest.. i have a lot of things to think abt..
hais.. things were not as gd.. certain signs i saw was lyk..
yea.. don reali wna say le.. damn sian to even think abt it..
anw, din noe if i was sad/disappointed/angry/jealous or anythin..
but yea.. din feel gd though.. yea.. things happen here n there..
today was worst also.. things kept runnin through my mind..
many many things.. cant stand it.. why must i have such imagination??
but they r all beyond my reach.. i can do noth to stop wad u r doin..
so mani ppl asked me qns abt sths already.. lyk wad they have seen laa..
ohwell.. din noe how to answer them.. but yea.. still did..
seriously, why cant this thing be fair?? i often think to myself..
it's reali unfair i must say.. but give n take is e key factor i must say..
it will get us far.. ohwells.. i have reali some troubles..
cant seem to get them off my chest.. but i don wna tell any1 abt it..
sigh.. mb keepin it to myself will e best solution yea??
i guess so ba..











walao.. some ppl so childish laa..
now wad century le?? still play spam ah??
hhaas.. so dumb laa.. why cant grow up??
reali think quite highly of herself lea..
zZz.. but it's okays dear..
will be always there for you no matter wad..
hhaas.. loveyou..
it seems lyk i cant live without you for even a sec..










~nic^^

i wonder how long have i not been postin already..
have been busy everyday.. well.. almost i guess..
hhaas.. life have been gd.. except for a few setbacks here n there..
yea.. but still.. love it.. hhaas..
fri: kf was reali devastated with a news.. OMG.. he was reali scary when he is sad..
i've never seen him lyk tat ever be4.. always so cheerful n jokin..
i noe it hit him reali hard.. i mean.. obviously laa!!
hhaas.. but still, bro, u have to let it go n pick yrself up..
at least u still have this bro ma.. hhaas.. i'll not be lyk her..
i will be always here for you!! plz be alright after e deadline u gave us..
a week it shall be yea?? hhaas..


fri, went to have mid-night movie with dar..
watched red cliff.. yea.. it's reali nice i must say..
go catch it if possible yea?!? hhaas..
u will not regret it.. plus so worth yr money..
e duration is reali long los:):)





my gal"
i noe sths cant be said or told..
it doesn't matter..
will be always there for you no matter wad..
i will always be yr listenin ear!!
i will listen to all yr woes..
i will, trust me..
i might seem un-interested, but i am alrights?!?
hhaas.. loveyou lots..
don let lil things get to us alrights?!?
it shall never be yea?!?
let's concentrate on celebrating our 5th month..
steamboat it shall be.. hhaas..
anw havin anythin with u is nice..
n last but not least, don be so stubborn!! :):)
loves*







~nic^^

oral on tues.. aiya.. duno wad to say abt it..
lyk quite diff laa.. omg.. asked abt inflations laa..
wad to say sia?? not much los.. zZz..
there goes my distinction laa..
i wna get at least an a2 los.. now??
duno can not los.. hhaas.. musical..
2 years ago was a lot better..
i noe e ppl involved tried their best too..
they deserve a pat on their backs..
n my bestest GF deserves a round of applause too^^
did a fairly great job as a make-up artist..
hhaas.. anw, last yr de musical din turn out as i wanted it to be..
kinda disappointed.. yea.. but still gd job los..

zj, thanks for e lighter yea??





i've given u my heart n soul..
it's reali uncountable..
it's amount is greater den anythin on earth..
trust me..












~nic^^

heyy baby.. this post is for you..
you noe?? after 2days tat we din meet..
den meetin on sund?? it was a relieve!!
it seems so hard to not miss or think abt you..
jus even for a min, it seems impossible..
don think too much abt wad u have been thinkin of okay?!?
plz.. u noe how much i loveyou yea??
trust me on this.. loveyou loads!!







~nic^^

HAPPY 4TH MONTH, LOVE!!
hhaas.. 4months le!! woots~
let's keep it up love.. hees..
love bein with you.. so fun laa!!
erm yest we went to catch a movie..
"get smart" hhaas.. it's a nice show..
lols.. quite funny n stuff..







it's reali nice jus bein with you my love..
hhaas.. jus with u around.. everythin seems so right..
all seems so in place laa..
loveyou lots!!






~nic^^

my gal~
you noe?!? it's been abt 4 months tat we have been tgt..
u wna noe sth?? it's e best-est n most rewardin part of my life..
i duno.. feel lyk i have reali lived fully for these days..
i feel tat u r a part of me.. u noe.. cant be seperated at all!!
so stuck tgt.. n to tell you, i actually love it a lot!!
it is so great to jus have you by my side all day long..
actually blissful n rewardin i must say.. never been greater!!
life for me in these 4months is reali great!!
never been much better.. i wan this to remain n stay for eternity!!
seriously i'm reali contented for havin you.. best thing tat happened..
i don care if any1 has any negative comments abt you..
u r jus e best to me.. wad they ever tell me will never get into my ear!!
n anw, i doubt there is much ppl with negative comments abt you..
n e trip to www with dear, aunty n her cuzzie was great!!
hhaas.. enjoyed it a lot.. i mean lyk..
everythin i do,it's great jus lyk havin e companionship of mylove..
so, wad more can i ever ask for?!? hhaas..
I JUS LOVE MY GF!! SHE IS E BEST..
U HAVE TO BELIEVE ME ON THIS..


*with lotsa love!!










~nic^^

tues:
went out with kf n benson!! hhaas.. funn n funny ppl..
we all looked lyk gays laa.. for wadever thing we will ever do..
gettin stares n funny looks from e crowd was kinda wierd though..
i don reali care though.. we r all attached already laa!!!
n i m v sure we all treasure it.. at least i noe i do!! hhaas..
ohwells.. we watched narnia.. yea!! i was great.. told by so mani ppl..
especially my gal.. left a v big impact on me though..
yea.. kf had to go to e toilet.. he held onto his bladder n stuff..
hhaas.. was reali funny.. we also did annoy him pretty much though..
den we slack at my hsedownstairs n played ball n stuff..
anw, im certain tat my hse's swimmin pool is great..
for wad i did to benson n kf.. hhaas.. was definately fun..
i had a chance to taste my medicine.. was FUN, BUT!! TIRING INDEED!!
den kf decided to stay at my hse.. zZz.. tmr he wan me to train him in bball..
den we did mani things.. n finally reached my hse at lyk 1120??
it's lyk long since i reached home early laa..
we did our stuff n when we were playin cards!! there's a roach which ran out..
OMG.. first time my hse got roach laa..
damn scary.. somemore e roach played with kf's leggss.. hhaas..
so funny de lors.. den we went to eat supper at 2plus gg3..
went home at 4?? den slacked den fell aslp le..




gal:
for this past 2days tat i din c you..
i have been missing u lyk a lot a lot..
i swear i will definately treasure u a lot!!
anw, will be meetin soon already.. hhaass..
loves* xOxOxO









~nic^^

sat.. had a rather relaxed day at home n stuff..
den went to meet zj n jy.. went to pool a while onli..
quite unlucky today i suppose?? all my balls were off..
anw, after tat went to meet dear.. den went to her hse stay..
enjoyed e time spent tgt.. rather heartwarming..
den woke up le.. slack n stuff till quite late..
den we went to have dinner.. hmm a stupid thing happened to me at northpoint..
2 stupid ppl.. zZz.. anw, tat's not e point..
i m tired.. i nd a rest.. i nd it.. i m not feeling well..
tata.. wna go rest le bahs..



DEAR:
this post specially written for you de..
cause u say i v long din blog le..
loves*








*reali disheartened*









~nic^^

alrights.. there r jus too mani things happenin..
hhaas.. lazy to say them out.. anw, it's all nice..
erm i have been spendin lotsa time with my love..
hhaas.. it's reali nice n relaxin laa.. love this lifestyle..
reali cant imagine living without you in my life..
dear i loveyou lots!! hhaas..
erm anw, for e past mani days..
dear n me have brought her dogs for walks..
n it's kinda fun makin them playin with e slides..
hhaas.. reali funny too.. rewardin as well i suppose??
have been reachin home at abt 1plus a bit everyday..
tiring, but reali love it.. spendin time tgt with dear is e best..
woots~ anw, thurs went out with kf n benson to marina square there..
ate hong kong cafe for dinner.. was alrights bahs..
den we went to walk abt.. joked n stuff.. quite fun..
den walk halfway den we all decided to go play pool..
play till 10plus den sytop le.. in e mrt tat time even funnier los..
i keep makin benson.. till he cant reali stand it laa..
reali funny.. hhaas.. den after tat went to meet dear..













~nic^^

i m back to blogg more..
anw, had bball camp in sch on thurs..
hhaas.. was a v tiring day.. but was kinda fun..
had bbq at night, n for once..
i din do a single shit lors.. v cool..
played bball in e dark n stuff.. quite cool..
den went to bathe n stuff.. went back le..
half e ppl were wearin boxers to slp..
but i was e onli 1 who had special attention from every1..
they teased me as monster n stuff.. ass lors..
anw, i ignored it n went to play card outside..
at a bench.. played till at abt 2plus..
den aaron told us he saw sth dirty.. we din c though..
den we continued till abt 15 mind ltr?? aaron n i saw it tgt this time..
omg.. din noe whyy we saw it laa.. but we were quite scared actually..
den aaron n i saw ma.. den jun chai crazy de.. din c so v curious lyk tat..
we went to talk around parts of sch ma..
den we went to forth floor, sit at e pavement lyk tat..
next time e female toilet n staircase there.. den ah..
it was v spooky.. played there a while den we sat down talk..
half way, jun chai saw a wierdest thing on earth..
v scary lors.. den he was v shocked n scared..
den we went down back to second story..
at tat time was abt 4plus le.. den we continued wasting time n stuff lors..
was fun la.. hhaas.. thought saw wad we should no have laa.






DEAREST GAL:
hhaas.. havin loads of fun with u always..
hope u think so too k? hhaas..
anw, yest was noth de.. don think too much k??
srry ya?? i missyou lots..







~nic^^

omg.. my blogg.. im gonna pump blood into u soon ya?!?
nowadays lyk always v busy lyk tat lors..
anw, spend my bday with my dearest gal..
it wad fun, love.. don worry ya?? it was great.. jus short time onli..
anw, i got too many things to say n stuff till i duno where to begin..
so i jus write abt a few days bahs..
hmmm yest was lyk super bad.. had maths remedia den bio..
bio was kinda borin though.. cause i was tired n e air-conditioned room was great!!
yea.. anw, after tat i went to meet kf n benson..
kf bought a phone.. n after meetin them n do my stuff den i went to meet my gal..
den after tat we took her dogs out for a walk..
n guess wad?? it was late le.. so we decided to go back le..
den guess wad?? i dropped my phone into e lake..
damn sad la.. jus got my phone in lyk 2mnth plus onli la..
n stuff la.. its sad to lose my phone la.. but saw sth far worst den tat..
actually i couldn't believe it de la.. but wad it is.. it is a fact..
so yea.. got depressed n stuff lors.. yea.. but wadeva la..
i duno wad i m supposed to do, say n stuff la..
i will jus keep mum la i suppose..




my dear:
i have spent so much time with u these few weeks n stuff lors..
its reali great.. im sure n v v certain abt tat..
i love u lots.. talk abt u in e next post..
loveyou my dear..




~nic^^

fuck it la.. my day today jus sucks big time la..
sigh.. first, go ss remedia.. latest to go in.. nvm..
next, get caught for slpin inside.. den ltr tio kb..
wtf la.. wad is her fuckin prob la.. nb lors..
come in n said " imagine e whole world lyk nicholas"
i was lyk thinkin la.. at least e world will have better ppl right??
at least better den havin tat ass arnd.. wad a waste of our scarce resources..
think abt it.. for her to take transport.. she will probably take e bus with 10more of her..
while its for a bus of 30.. think abt e amount of fuel they have to use??
limited resource cant be waste on her jus lyk tat..
omg.. i have lots more to grumble actually la..
but i mean i will not do it here.. how i cant stand her..
e sight of her jus irritates me so horribly tat i will have nightmares..
jus by thinkin of how she tore e skirt she wore today jus makes me giggle..
every1 must have its limits.. don try to squeeze into sth u cant n tear it..
n in turn make a bloody fool out of yrself.. it jus makes so mani ppl's day..
i hear 100times more complain of her instead of some compliments..
how sad but true.. SHE DESERVES IT..
in my whole life.. she is e onli teach is is so screwed up..
wad a failure in life i must say.. keep boasting abt o levels marker shit..
ohwells.. i shall stop here le.. cant stand it anymore..
n jus to add on to it.. i had reali bad gastric after recess till 3..
damn sucks.. but thanks my dear for buyin me panadol..
though she forced me to eat it la.. but reali loveyou.. thanks..
den all e buses i wait for took so long to come.. late for everythin lors..






hmmm i dunoo why i did tat my dear..
my mood jus changed.. some reasons i suppose..
but i also duno why i reacted to it this way..
its wierd.. reali reali wierd la.. don reali understand..
thanks for caring abt me so much.. loves*
thanks for stayin close by me.. sigh..
but im not feeling alright today.. reali not gd..















~nic^^