today had carrer seminar thingy..
kinda borin.. slept almost all through it..
duno why.. don wan de.. but jus fell aslp i think??
erm talked with sy n zj quite a lot i guess?!?
sit beside sy.. haha.. she so evil.. tempted mi..
she said " sit beside mi la.. i got gD things to share with u"
haha.. she is my oreo freak fan tgt with mi..
so i sat down la.. v nice de lehs..
den chatted n stuff.. recess chatted with benson..
poor fellow.. wanna improve stuff den stuck in between..
den now he kana dao sia.. feel so sad la..
its lyk.. reali v poor thing lors..
wanna try to help him.. reali wan to!!
i will try my best de la benson..
don worry.. got mi arnd lehs!! no nd scared de :):)
after sch din go anywhere with dear..
went to play ball with friends.. haha..
had fun.. they all so lame n funny de..
haha.. feel so wierd not meetin dear..
but i just practice my self-control liao la..
so now im at home usin comp..
quite a few days neva use le..
hmmm now mr prem not in sch..
lyk e whole sch finally got peace lyk tat lors..
haha.. don feel lyk cuttin my hair..
but v thick n bushy le.. haha..
so i think gg cut this weekend bahs..
wa!! happy lehs.. i also gettin my phone on weekends le i think..
i gg to get w910i.. gettin e red 1!!
lyk it.. quite a nice phone.. duno why now den i wanna buy..
mb now den start to lyk it bahs i guess?!?
arghhhh.. miss my dear!! haha.. c will u tml de..
i wont worry abt tat.. loveya~~~
















~nic^^

hmmm feel tat ur still not okay with mi..
still feel tat there is smth wrong..
u still don seem to lyk reply mi..
first time so long still don wanna reply mi..
nvm la.. its ok.. noe u r busy ma..
den came online.. den saw yr personal msg..
haiis even more sian.. duno wad u mean sia..
so still a bit scared scared:(:(
don wan to be.. don lyk to be.. hais..
don wanna blogg le.. bbbbbbbbbbbbbb..
loveya my dear~











~nic^^

im screwed.. im an asshole..
hais.. i cant be described..
hais.. im beyond hope..
i duno wad to do..
im in a lost.. plz don be lyk tat..
i was reali feelin v insecure..
den tat msg came in n shot mi dead..
i worst den dead.. it reali made mi paralysed..
im half dead.. plz dear.. im so sry..









hais.. i don lyk it.. i feel so insecured..
plz hold mi back into arms again..
im floatin abt in mid-air without a support..
i nd u.. plz don say things lyk tat..
things lyk u r used to it already..
it hurts mi real bad..
it feels tat u r not happy..
i lost my emotions..
i jus broke down..
i nd a repair..
onli u can brin mi back to life..
n u have to do it..
i feel so helpless n useless..





















~nic:(

life has been rather gD for mi these days..
with e companionship of my gal, it's great!!
noth beats this time of my life right now..
i wan it to last.. last last n last plz!!
i noe it will.. i have confidence in us!!
talkin abt it.. jus rmb tat smth happened on thurs..
it was so embarrassing la cn?!? did it at a wrong time..
n guessed wad?@? got discovered.. felt so pai sehh la!!
din noe wad to do.. so kept quiet n feel so embarrassed!!
if there was a hole in e ground i would dig mi whole face inside it..
haha.. oh ya.. n yan jun lent mi her n73!!
den still got sim card inside de.. so gD hoh?!?
sianx.. mi dad confiscate my phone den mi mum still haven buy for mi..
but its ok.. its soon.. i noe it..
the feelin of w910i is around mi hands already..
cool.. i would get e red 1.. quite style..
yest went to or ong de buffet..
did everythin till abt lets say 1040??
den we left his hse already.. went to meet weiyu..
haha.. chatted n everythin till abt 1plus den i went home liao..
haha.. msg-ed with dear till she feel aslp!!
but its okay.. my dear gal, i noe u r tired..
rest well ya?!? i rather u fall aslp instead of mi^^
at least i still can pEii u till u slp..






to my dear gal~
heyy my dear.. i noe u r v tired these few days..
rest well k?? have to get energised to meet mi ltr..
haha.. i will be waitin to meet u..
*whispers* i loveya.. till e end of time..
i already devoted my whole heart to u..
101% no space for any1 le.. don worry..
i noe tat sometimes u think too much right??
but its true.. my love for u will neva change..
i will not make empty promises or wad-so-eva..
i will not say anymore.. let my actions prove it to u k? :)














~nic^^

8 of march!! congrats to mr n mrs ong..
today was yr bigg dayy..
on 7 march i still went to ton..
so tired.. slept for lyk 15mins?
damn.. so tired..
but when i was with my gal im neva tired..
well so i woke up at 6plus a bit n rushed down to black 221..
i wad late bt thankfully noth happened yet..
so i was still considered on time i think..
i ate a bun for breakfast.. den mr ong asked mi to style his hair..
so hornoured.. *laughes evil-ly!!*
haha.. but well.. after tat went to receive his bride..
mrs ong's sisters gave him a hard time..
but he did so well for all of em!!
cool man mr ong!!!
den did all e things already den we were brought to orchid country club..
haha.. den we playeed cards n stuff till abt 5plus den we were briefed again..
haha.. it sounded a little challengin but we were all set for it..
at first.. we had to be bouncers.. cant allow any1 to get in..
den we stood for abt an hr n a half??
den i had to rush up to do lightings..
i had so mani things to do i kept rushin n runnin up n down..
but no choice la.. i wanna help mr ong to make his weddin runs beautifully..
i did it well.. so pleased with myself!! i did it well..
so nervous but jiayu asked mi to have confidence in myself!!
so i did.. haha.. thanks bro~
den watched my gal dance.. haha..
cool~~ tumbs up!!
haha.. they were more co-ordinated den be4..
den durin half e show i flared up upon hearin smth..
joshua told mi tat mi classmate hit jiayu'head..
i waas so pissed i ask jiayu wad happened..
he told mi already i went to confront him..
but when i went there i saw him wantin to make jiayu again i think..
i erupted n shouted at him..
asked him wad he wanted.. if he was not happy den go out settle la..
n stuff.. i was dead fierce n super buay song..
ready to throw mi heated fist on him..
but i wad pulled back by guang liang..
he said tat its mr ong,s weddin to day so i should chill..
luckily went away cryin.. i sound lyk im so bad..
but it was smth he deserved.. they said i was so scary n so beng..
aiya.. wadeva la.. who ask him lyk tat treat mi bro..
no1 can do tat n get away from it easily..
den watched e show n e gate crashin in e morn..
n OMG guess wad.. mr ong had a forfeit n had to eat sour pulms n we helped also..
it was not a normal sour pulm.. it was super sour la..
deni was feature inside his video..
it was such an ugly sight la.. chewing hard n nodding mi head..
ohwell wad was showned was showned n i can do noth abt it..
haha.. so ps la can.. haha..
after e weddin i went dear home..
talked a while n she went home..
no bus le so took a cab back..












~nic^^








i loveya dear!! i m falling deeper n deeper for u each day..
i cant control it.. i can neva find myself again if u leave mi..
so don ever leave mi k? ^^

hais.. i duno h ow to start.. i m so sad..
haiis.. i reali lost now.. wanna be found again..
i got lost without u holdin mi hands n guiding mi..
i lost mi sense of direction.. i reali did..
i din get a gD bye hugg.. i cant feel e warmth..
all i m now is a freezing soul-less creature..
after i left.. i sat down thinkin of jus now..
it all seems so scary to mi.. i m so shocked this actually happened!!
i reali m so scared.. i guess i m a bit more sensitive..
but tat is onli tellin mi how i care abt u..
n tat i m so scared of losin u.. i m so afraid..
i duno why i came to blogg.. guess i needed some1 to talk to..
i reali hope to get more care n concern from u..
even if i get jus a little more.. i will be quite satisfied..
i hate it when u always listen to yr mp3 n keep quiet..
it always is a v scary thing.. i always feel so alone..
i don wanna feel tat way.. i wanna feel tat i have u all along with mi..
e scenes i c in sch is even more disheartenin..
i guess i guess have to get used to it??
but i reali don lyk it.. m i reali askin for too much??
god.. plz tell mi.. give mi some directions..
haiis.. walls cant even numb mi now..
i nd somethin more den tat.. i m kinda waitin for yr msg..
but nvm its ok.. i m used to it le..
i miss u mi dear~ who can i turn to now??
u don even seem lyk u bother abt mi at all..
is it tat u reali don care abt mi le ma??
so mani questions to ask now..
but who can i turn to?!?









~nic^^

woot.. so long neva blogg le..
got all my results back le..
i failed 2subs!! sianx..
actually onli wanna fail 1 de..
but in e end failed ss!! all did so well lors!!
but i wrote out of point den fail lyk shit la..
ya.. e other sub is bio la.. it goes without sayin..
yest mdm ng cried in class sia..
her words so touchin la!! i wanna study le!!
cant fail bio anymore!! must chiong le!!
after ss remedia yest went home..
bathe den went to meet dear~
so fun.. had a fun time with her.. so happy..
today actually wanna wait for her den pei her home de..
but no1 peii mi in sch.. so went home first..
den msged her n asked if she wan mi go meet her ma..
but she haven reply la.. so long le..
nvm bahs.. but think today cant meet her le..
benson poh!! u ass!! u dua mi!!!!!
u ask mi go bball den u neva go!!
hai mi noth do at home den cant wait for dear~
tml go sch den settle with u!!













~nic^^