hais.. gg to take a bath n go somewhere for a long stroll..
which would hopefully make mi 4get everythin..
im reali v scared now..
listen to all tat u said..
im reali gg crazy le..
but wad can i do??
u don seem to confine much with mi:'(
i reali m gg crazy le..
plz don be lyk tat..













~nic:'(

got e shock of my life..
my heart hurts real bad..
why?!?!?! jus kill mi instead..












~nic:(

hais.. feel lyk im being stabbed in e heart..
im bleedin non-stop without any aid..
e person i wan to be rescued by isn't there..
hais.. no reply again.. so long le..
duno wad to do.. don think ltr meetin le..
hais.. FUCK MAN!!!!
wtf man.. why must this happen?!?!?!?!














~nic_!_

today had carrer seminar thingy..
kinda borin.. slept almost all through it..
duno why.. don wan de.. but jus fell aslp i think??
erm talked with sy n zj quite a lot i guess?!?
sit beside sy.. haha.. she so evil.. tempted mi..
she said " sit beside mi la.. i got gD things to share with u"
haha.. she is my oreo freak fan tgt with mi..
so i sat down la.. v nice de lehs..
den chatted n stuff.. recess chatted with benson..
poor fellow.. wanna improve stuff den stuck in between..
den now he kana dao sia.. feel so sad la..
its lyk.. reali v poor thing lors..
wanna try to help him.. reali wan to!!
i will try my best de la benson..
don worry.. got mi arnd lehs!! no nd scared de :):)
after sch din go anywhere with dear..
went to play ball with friends.. haha..
had fun.. they all so lame n funny de..
haha.. feel so wierd not meetin dear..
but i just practice my self-control liao la..
so now im at home usin comp..
quite a few days neva use le..
hmmm now mr prem not in sch..
lyk e whole sch finally got peace lyk tat lors..
haha.. don feel lyk cuttin my hair..
but v thick n bushy le.. haha..
so i think gg cut this weekend bahs..
wa!! happy lehs.. i also gettin my phone on weekends le i think..
i gg to get w910i.. gettin e red 1!!
lyk it.. quite a nice phone.. duno why now den i wanna buy..
mb now den start to lyk it bahs i guess?!?
arghhhh.. miss my dear!! haha.. c will u tml de..
i wont worry abt tat.. loveya~~~
















~nic^^

hmmm feel tat ur still not okay with mi..
still feel tat there is smth wrong..
u still don seem to lyk reply mi..
first time so long still don wanna reply mi..
nvm la.. its ok.. noe u r busy ma..
den came online.. den saw yr personal msg..
haiis even more sian.. duno wad u mean sia..
so still a bit scared scared:(:(
don wan to be.. don lyk to be.. hais..
don wanna blogg le.. bbbbbbbbbbbbbb..
loveya my dear~











~nic^^

im screwed.. im an asshole..
hais.. i cant be described..
hais.. im beyond hope..
i duno wad to do..
im in a lost.. plz don be lyk tat..
i was reali feelin v insecure..
den tat msg came in n shot mi dead..
i worst den dead.. it reali made mi paralysed..
im half dead.. plz dear.. im so sry..









hais.. i don lyk it.. i feel so insecured..
plz hold mi back into arms again..
im floatin abt in mid-air without a support..
i nd u.. plz don say things lyk tat..
things lyk u r used to it already..
it hurts mi real bad..
it feels tat u r not happy..
i lost my emotions..
i jus broke down..
i nd a repair..
onli u can brin mi back to life..
n u have to do it..
i feel so helpless n useless..





















~nic:(

life has been rather gD for mi these days..
with e companionship of my gal, it's great!!
noth beats this time of my life right now..
i wan it to last.. last last n last plz!!
i noe it will.. i have confidence in us!!
talkin abt it.. jus rmb tat smth happened on thurs..
it was so embarrassing la cn?!? did it at a wrong time..
n guessed wad?@? got discovered.. felt so pai sehh la!!
din noe wad to do.. so kept quiet n feel so embarrassed!!
if there was a hole in e ground i would dig mi whole face inside it..
haha.. oh ya.. n yan jun lent mi her n73!!
den still got sim card inside de.. so gD hoh?!?
sianx.. mi dad confiscate my phone den mi mum still haven buy for mi..
but its ok.. its soon.. i noe it..
the feelin of w910i is around mi hands already..
cool.. i would get e red 1.. quite style..
yest went to or ong de buffet..
did everythin till abt lets say 1040??
den we left his hse already.. went to meet weiyu..
haha.. chatted n everythin till abt 1plus den i went home liao..
haha.. msg-ed with dear till she feel aslp!!
but its okay.. my dear gal, i noe u r tired..
rest well ya?!? i rather u fall aslp instead of mi^^
at least i still can pEii u till u slp..






to my dear gal~
heyy my dear.. i noe u r v tired these few days..
rest well k?? have to get energised to meet mi ltr..
haha.. i will be waitin to meet u..
*whispers* i loveya.. till e end of time..
i already devoted my whole heart to u..
101% no space for any1 le.. don worry..
i noe tat sometimes u think too much right??
but its true.. my love for u will neva change..
i will not make empty promises or wad-so-eva..
i will not say anymore.. let my actions prove it to u k? :)














~nic^^