yea.. suddenly received a text from yj..
yea.. at 4plus?? i 6plus den reply.. psps..
c liao so fuckin pissed la.. not with yj..
but with e content tat a particular person wrote la..
yea.. so pissed.. haha.. n yj so funny.. keep askin mi chill..
don worry i will be okay de.. im jus so sad n stuff lors..
last time mi n him so gD now lyk duno wad fuck lyk tat..
c wad he say i also so fuckin disappointed lors..
wad can i do?? also noth.. relationships nd a long time to build..
but it onli takes a stupid matter or day to blow it all off..
ohwell.. its true lors.. i have experienced it lors!!
been through so much tgt.. gotten canned n stuff tgt..
but ya.. wad u wan n said is all rubbish & so childish la..
wadeva la can?!? ohwell.. noe so much more after tat talk..
n i also told u alot of things as well..
haha.. gD for us.. we both also got things to gain..













~nic^^

haha.. long time no blogg le:)
lyk no time lyk tat..
hmmm sat went out with dear to study..
den she studied a bit den play my psp liao..
haha.. but she also did her work okay?!?
bravos!! she din noe how to do a super simple sum:)
so funny lors!! hmmmm den in e end,i sent her home..
n chatted downstairs.. talked till 1220plus den i left..
haha.. din feel lyk gg home.. so went to kf hse to ton..
haha.. had a lot of fun bro~~ crappin so much..
n somemore a little secret we have in e playground!!
dear!! u noe don tell any1 k?!? haha.. not even a single soul..
so embarrasing la!! =.= haha.. so shHhhhhhhHH okays??
lols.. watched a super funny video..
sex is zero!! super duper funny n hillarious!!
don watch it if u r faint hearted.. it's v sexual..
hmmm anyway took pics with dear tat day..
lols.. i never post sia.. u all go her blogg c la:):)
lols.. i lyk helpin to advertise her blogg lyk tat lors..
ohwell slept at 6plus tat day n woke up at lyk 11?!?
sleep so little lors.. but went home still got sleep 1hr plus..




dear:
haha.. i noe tat it changes v quickly..
its always lyk a tornado or mother nature's disasters..
come so unexpectedly n with massive force n destruction!!
but ohwell.. its ok.. sometimes i also will de..
ohwell.. jus feel so sad now..
hp n psp.. jus lyk a bane of my life or sth lors..
ohwell.. its okay i guess..
kinda used to it already so im okay..
jus feel so hurt at times.. but e feeling..
u wont ever understand.. disappointment..
ohwell.. it's okay my dear gal..
loveya lots!! <3<3















~nic^^

today went back home after sch..
haha.. cause i meetin kf they all..
home le.. changed n stuff n wait for them to come my hse..
duno why they wanna come also..
rain so big while we chatted..
chatted n stuff le den we wanted to go swim..
but decided not to in e end, so went to grassroot..
went to play pool.. haha.. i must train harder in order to improve..
haha.. today played okay la.. not bad..
haha.. must train more n more!! jiayous!!
n guess wad?!? i m begainin to feel lyk studying again..
haha.. so i must faster get e mood back..
den i must ask dear go study with mi le!!
must ask her to study also.. cant slack le la dear..
we can motivate n push each other!! JIAYOUS!!
must start to study le.. in order to do well?!?



jus now dear jus told mi abt my doubts abt a msg..
haha.. listen le so happy lors..
so damn shocked when i read it yest!!
din slp much yest.. 3hours max?!?
cant seem to slp.. v bothered by it lors!!
but now i m fine le!! haha thanks dear!!
loveya, loveya, loveya, loveya lots dear<3!!
u made my life colourful again..
its no more in black n white le!!
its multi-coloured!! loves*














~nic^^

today de lesson was kinda borin..
in e morn, was 2 periods of chinese..
did bao zhang bao dao de test..
so sianx.. cant finish it on time..
den jus hand up also.. den after tat was eng!!
it was our new techer andro tang!!
omg.. duno why every1 keep playin with him n stuff..
not reali playin la.. but insulting la actually!!
haha.. i was inside them also..
jus keep insulting him n stuff..
but we jus playin de la.. jus tryin to be lame i suppose??
den after recess den its maths..
so mani ppl go e investiture thingy la..
den class lost 10 person lyk tat..
den nathan de lesson.. 2periods!! sianx ah!!
but super heng ah!! we din do much..
we make till her lesson become free period..
so fun!! meanwhile.. zj was kinda alone in class..
went to peii her a while den teach jun chai cube..
den i suddenly told zj tat i dreamt on sth wierd yest!!
den told her lors.. duno how to say..
jus v wierd.. told her cause she was inside..
kinda lyk a 'victim' lyk tat..
told her le den she ask wierd wierd things..
zZz!!!!!!!!!!!!! =.=" ppl c u all through le..
still can ask mi these kind of stupid qn?!?!?!
yea.. had lunch with dear, sj n joshua..
had lunch, chatted n crapped..
den later in e afternoon.. i went for bball..
but a while onli lehs i guess.. den go find them le..
den after tat sent dear back..
she nd to use e toilet.. den i keep disturb her:):)
so funny.. dear next time u lyk tat beta don tell mi..
or not i scared i make yr time during tat time v miserable!!
hees.. btw sry my dear.. not purposely de..
jus playin onli.. hees.. oh ya hoh..
dear i jus now in e night a bit wierd wierd de right??
i also duno why.. mb i noe.. but 4got le=.="
so nvm la.. sry ah!! n there is a v funny thing today..
dear asked mi take her phone back today..
so funny right?!? yea.. but cool..
i am still waitin for yr reply from yr other phone..
haha.. so funny!! don fall aslp yet ah!! :):)














~nic^^

24-03-08
today.. i was almost late.. but i rather be late la..
zZz.. erm gt reason de.. i not siao..
erm den in sch.. yan jun jie told mi sth..
hais.. listen le v sian.. pissed as well..
hais.. jie.. its up to u to believe mi..
i never lie to u much de lors..
den he lied to u lyk duno wad fuck..
c who u believe lors.. wad a person lors..
listen liao i reali think tat..
its not worth it to make such a "bro"..
cause of this kind of things say mi..
wtf lors.. if he ask mi say is i delete de..
i will tell u sorry is i delete de lors..
no nd to lyk tat backstab mi de lors..
got reali hurt.. den after sch went to eat lunch at mac..
with dear, sj,joshua,sy n fiona..
eat le peithem back sch den i go home liao..
take a nap lors.. a long 1.. slp till v shuang lors..













~nic^^

23-03-08
dear!! happy one month!!
hmmm faster cut my hair in e morn..
den jiu prepare n go meet dear le..
met her le den we took bus to amk central..
den changed bus to go to east coast lors!!
haha.. told dear tat i promise to brin her there..
so we took a bus there.. quite long i suppose??
guess its cause i onli listened to mp3..
den later we got down e bus..
we din quite noe where to alight de..
but, dear was so smart tat day..
told mi where to alight..
tat was e first time lors!!
miracles do happen!! hhaas..
den we got down n walked to east coast!!
not a v long walk.. walkable distance..
den we went to rollar blade..
haven done tat in lyk 6years lyk tat=.=
but i was so lucky.. got e hang of it within 10mins..
den jiu okay le.. haha.. dear also v pro..
haha.. she did it pretty well too^^
but i was v sad!! u noe why?!?!?!?!?!
we brought along our shades!! den i helped dear keep..
sianx.. when we bladed to e other end tat time..
den dear told mi tat i jus dropped my shades..
i heard e sound but din realise tat i dropped..
den i went to pick it up.. den i was checkin for dear's shades..
den when i feel my pants there, it was empty..
i got so shocked.. den i told dear to wait for a while den i chiong back check..
but sadly, i din manage to find it.. i told dear to go back where we came from..
but we could find noth.. so sad.. i got so sad n guilty..
but dear kept sayin tat it was okay..
im so sry dear~ i noe u got it jus abt a month plus onli..
n im so sry aunty!! it cost $130plus.. so guilty la..
anyway after tat we went to e beach to snack after cleanin up..
sat n enjoyed e breeze n e lovely food..
haha.. den we decided to for for dinner liao..
its arnd 7?? den walk to bus stop..
but got out at wrong exit..
walked v long den realised de..
den we walked all e way back!!
v long la.. den we walked to e right exit..
den we decided to eat ichiban..
den came back amk to eat..
den came there den they not takin last orders le..
SRY DEAR!! I WANNA BRIN U EAT DE..
BUT CLOSE LE.. NVM LA..
we still got mani more months n years to eat tgt de la..
no worries lors.. den we went to eat kfc instead..
nvm la.. with dear arnd.. everythin taste as gd..
den i sent dear home.. den ask her go back first..
faster go do her hwk.. haha dear!!
i enjoyed myself today.. no worries..
loveya!! we stick with each other always k??
haha.. may u be with mi always..

















~nic^^

dear!!! saw yr blogg..kinda depressed for a momment..yea.. but im fine..we also okay le..so im cool..n abt e smokin thing!!its a straight NONONO!!neva try it plz.. no gD de..u wan mi quit.. i straight away say ok liao..den u made mi quit den u wanna try?!?!cant!! i don allow!!
<3>







~nic^^

zZz.. yest was a total mess up till evenin time..
i was so fuckin sad n depressed..
den in e end in e evenin den okay liao..
haha.. bambi(e name of a dog, duno spelt it correctly ma)
went to dear de hse with sj n joshua..
haha.. played with bambi.. v cute..
but sadly.. she has got skin prob..
sad right?!? i played with it till my nose....
kept sneezing n v irritated..
duno wad happened.. played n everythin den went back at 11plus..

21-03-08
woke up early today..
den went to have breakfast with parents..
quite a long time since we ate breakfast tgt..
feel so guilty la.. but ohwell..
sry i guess?? den went to buy my future phone..
but sadly, don have red.. so i have to wait..
waitin is not e biggest prob..
e biggest prob is tat also not confirm have stock lors!!
wtf lors.. kinda sad la seriously..
now waitin for benson n weilan to come..
they comin my hse here slack..
suddenly called mi n ask mi can ma..
den i was on my way home den i say anythin lors..
ya.. poor benson.. don be sad alright??
its okay.. u still have us..
give both of u time..
mb u all jus nd time to cool down??
but this is such a bad choice i guess??
im gg ask more abt it later on..
n LIMWEIYU!! U BETA NOT THINK OF IT YA?!?
WAD U TOLD MI IS SCARY!!
although it all depends on u la..
but i duno.. its up to u i guess..










din msg a lot with u today..
a bit sad.. but its okay bahs..
wait n wait n wait..
stare n stare n stare..
but all e msg all don have yr name de..
replied all others de anyhow..
don reali have mood??


















~nic^^

hais.. gg to take a bath n go somewhere for a long stroll..
which would hopefully make mi 4get everythin..
im reali v scared now..
listen to all tat u said..
im reali gg crazy le..
but wad can i do??
u don seem to confine much with mi:'(
i reali m gg crazy le..
plz don be lyk tat..













~nic:'(

got e shock of my life..
my heart hurts real bad..
why?!?!?! jus kill mi instead..












~nic:(

hais.. feel lyk im being stabbed in e heart..
im bleedin non-stop without any aid..
e person i wan to be rescued by isn't there..
hais.. no reply again.. so long le..
duno wad to do.. don think ltr meetin le..
hais.. FUCK MAN!!!!
wtf man.. why must this happen?!?!?!?!














~nic_!_

today had carrer seminar thingy..
kinda borin.. slept almost all through it..
duno why.. don wan de.. but jus fell aslp i think??
erm talked with sy n zj quite a lot i guess?!?
sit beside sy.. haha.. she so evil.. tempted mi..
she said " sit beside mi la.. i got gD things to share with u"
haha.. she is my oreo freak fan tgt with mi..
so i sat down la.. v nice de lehs..
den chatted n stuff.. recess chatted with benson..
poor fellow.. wanna improve stuff den stuck in between..
den now he kana dao sia.. feel so sad la..
its lyk.. reali v poor thing lors..
wanna try to help him.. reali wan to!!
i will try my best de la benson..
don worry.. got mi arnd lehs!! no nd scared de :):)
after sch din go anywhere with dear..
went to play ball with friends.. haha..
had fun.. they all so lame n funny de..
haha.. feel so wierd not meetin dear..
but i just practice my self-control liao la..
so now im at home usin comp..
quite a few days neva use le..
hmmm now mr prem not in sch..
lyk e whole sch finally got peace lyk tat lors..
haha.. don feel lyk cuttin my hair..
but v thick n bushy le.. haha..
so i think gg cut this weekend bahs..
wa!! happy lehs.. i also gettin my phone on weekends le i think..
i gg to get w910i.. gettin e red 1!!
lyk it.. quite a nice phone.. duno why now den i wanna buy..
mb now den start to lyk it bahs i guess?!?
arghhhh.. miss my dear!! haha.. c will u tml de..
i wont worry abt tat.. loveya~~~
















~nic^^

hmmm feel tat ur still not okay with mi..
still feel tat there is smth wrong..
u still don seem to lyk reply mi..
first time so long still don wanna reply mi..
nvm la.. its ok.. noe u r busy ma..
den came online.. den saw yr personal msg..
haiis even more sian.. duno wad u mean sia..
so still a bit scared scared:(:(
don wan to be.. don lyk to be.. hais..
don wanna blogg le.. bbbbbbbbbbbbbb..
loveya my dear~











~nic^^

im screwed.. im an asshole..
hais.. i cant be described..
hais.. im beyond hope..
i duno wad to do..
im in a lost.. plz don be lyk tat..
i was reali feelin v insecure..
den tat msg came in n shot mi dead..
i worst den dead.. it reali made mi paralysed..
im half dead.. plz dear.. im so sry..









hais.. i don lyk it.. i feel so insecured..
plz hold mi back into arms again..
im floatin abt in mid-air without a support..
i nd u.. plz don say things lyk tat..
things lyk u r used to it already..
it hurts mi real bad..
it feels tat u r not happy..
i lost my emotions..
i jus broke down..
i nd a repair..
onli u can brin mi back to life..
n u have to do it..
i feel so helpless n useless..





















~nic:(

life has been rather gD for mi these days..
with e companionship of my gal, it's great!!
noth beats this time of my life right now..
i wan it to last.. last last n last plz!!
i noe it will.. i have confidence in us!!
talkin abt it.. jus rmb tat smth happened on thurs..
it was so embarrassing la cn?!? did it at a wrong time..
n guessed wad?@? got discovered.. felt so pai sehh la!!
din noe wad to do.. so kept quiet n feel so embarrassed!!
if there was a hole in e ground i would dig mi whole face inside it..
haha.. oh ya.. n yan jun lent mi her n73!!
den still got sim card inside de.. so gD hoh?!?
sianx.. mi dad confiscate my phone den mi mum still haven buy for mi..
but its ok.. its soon.. i noe it..
the feelin of w910i is around mi hands already..
cool.. i would get e red 1.. quite style..
yest went to or ong de buffet..
did everythin till abt lets say 1040??
den we left his hse already.. went to meet weiyu..
haha.. chatted n everythin till abt 1plus den i went home liao..
haha.. msg-ed with dear till she feel aslp!!
but its okay.. my dear gal, i noe u r tired..
rest well ya?!? i rather u fall aslp instead of mi^^
at least i still can pEii u till u slp..






to my dear gal~
heyy my dear.. i noe u r v tired these few days..
rest well k?? have to get energised to meet mi ltr..
haha.. i will be waitin to meet u..
*whispers* i loveya.. till e end of time..
i already devoted my whole heart to u..
101% no space for any1 le.. don worry..
i noe tat sometimes u think too much right??
but its true.. my love for u will neva change..
i will not make empty promises or wad-so-eva..
i will not say anymore.. let my actions prove it to u k? :)














~nic^^

8 of march!! congrats to mr n mrs ong..
today was yr bigg dayy..
on 7 march i still went to ton..
so tired.. slept for lyk 15mins?
damn.. so tired..
but when i was with my gal im neva tired..
well so i woke up at 6plus a bit n rushed down to black 221..
i wad late bt thankfully noth happened yet..
so i was still considered on time i think..
i ate a bun for breakfast.. den mr ong asked mi to style his hair..
so hornoured.. *laughes evil-ly!!*
haha.. but well.. after tat went to receive his bride..
mrs ong's sisters gave him a hard time..
but he did so well for all of em!!
cool man mr ong!!!
den did all e things already den we were brought to orchid country club..
haha.. den we playeed cards n stuff till abt 5plus den we were briefed again..
haha.. it sounded a little challengin but we were all set for it..
at first.. we had to be bouncers.. cant allow any1 to get in..
den we stood for abt an hr n a half??
den i had to rush up to do lightings..
i had so mani things to do i kept rushin n runnin up n down..
but no choice la.. i wanna help mr ong to make his weddin runs beautifully..
i did it well.. so pleased with myself!! i did it well..
so nervous but jiayu asked mi to have confidence in myself!!
so i did.. haha.. thanks bro~
den watched my gal dance.. haha..
cool~~ tumbs up!!
haha.. they were more co-ordinated den be4..
den durin half e show i flared up upon hearin smth..
joshua told mi tat mi classmate hit jiayu'head..
i waas so pissed i ask jiayu wad happened..
he told mi already i went to confront him..
but when i went there i saw him wantin to make jiayu again i think..
i erupted n shouted at him..
asked him wad he wanted.. if he was not happy den go out settle la..
n stuff.. i was dead fierce n super buay song..
ready to throw mi heated fist on him..
but i wad pulled back by guang liang..
he said tat its mr ong,s weddin to day so i should chill..
luckily went away cryin.. i sound lyk im so bad..
but it was smth he deserved.. they said i was so scary n so beng..
aiya.. wadeva la.. who ask him lyk tat treat mi bro..
no1 can do tat n get away from it easily..
den watched e show n e gate crashin in e morn..
n OMG guess wad.. mr ong had a forfeit n had to eat sour pulms n we helped also..
it was not a normal sour pulm.. it was super sour la..
deni was feature inside his video..
it was such an ugly sight la.. chewing hard n nodding mi head..
ohwell wad was showned was showned n i can do noth abt it..
haha.. so ps la can.. haha..
after e weddin i went dear home..
talked a while n she went home..
no bus le so took a cab back..












~nic^^








i loveya dear!! i m falling deeper n deeper for u each day..
i cant control it.. i can neva find myself again if u leave mi..
so don ever leave mi k? ^^

hais.. i duno h ow to start.. i m so sad..
haiis.. i reali lost now.. wanna be found again..
i got lost without u holdin mi hands n guiding mi..
i lost mi sense of direction.. i reali did..
i din get a gD bye hugg.. i cant feel e warmth..
all i m now is a freezing soul-less creature..
after i left.. i sat down thinkin of jus now..
it all seems so scary to mi.. i m so shocked this actually happened!!
i reali m so scared.. i guess i m a bit more sensitive..
but tat is onli tellin mi how i care abt u..
n tat i m so scared of losin u.. i m so afraid..
i duno why i came to blogg.. guess i needed some1 to talk to..
i reali hope to get more care n concern from u..
even if i get jus a little more.. i will be quite satisfied..
i hate it when u always listen to yr mp3 n keep quiet..
it always is a v scary thing.. i always feel so alone..
i don wanna feel tat way.. i wanna feel tat i have u all along with mi..
e scenes i c in sch is even more disheartenin..
i guess i guess have to get used to it??
but i reali don lyk it.. m i reali askin for too much??
god.. plz tell mi.. give mi some directions..
haiis.. walls cant even numb mi now..
i nd somethin more den tat.. i m kinda waitin for yr msg..
but nvm its ok.. i m used to it le..
i miss u mi dear~ who can i turn to now??
u don even seem lyk u bother abt mi at all..
is it tat u reali don care abt mi le ma??
so mani questions to ask now..
but who can i turn to?!?









~nic^^

woot.. so long neva blogg le..
got all my results back le..
i failed 2subs!! sianx..
actually onli wanna fail 1 de..
but in e end failed ss!! all did so well lors!!
but i wrote out of point den fail lyk shit la..
ya.. e other sub is bio la.. it goes without sayin..
yest mdm ng cried in class sia..
her words so touchin la!! i wanna study le!!
cant fail bio anymore!! must chiong le!!
after ss remedia yest went home..
bathe den went to meet dear~
so fun.. had a fun time with her.. so happy..
today actually wanna wait for her den pei her home de..
but no1 peii mi in sch.. so went home first..
den msged her n asked if she wan mi go meet her ma..
but she haven reply la.. so long le..
nvm bahs.. but think today cant meet her le..
benson poh!! u ass!! u dua mi!!!!!
u ask mi go bball den u neva go!!
hai mi noth do at home den cant wait for dear~
tml go sch den settle with u!!













~nic^^