it's 20th november 2008, thursday

yea.. it's been so long since i've blogged..
feeelllll a lil awarkard to blogg again..
everyday have been pretty busy for me..
after o levels everything seems to be of a slower pace..
like more time with my shermaine n stuff..
my dearest grandfather have gone to a place far far away..
where he will no longer have to suffer..
no longer have to worry abt any shit on earth..
n finally lead a carefree like..
because of prom i missed e forth day of e wake..
feel bad.. but it can't be helped can it??
anw, things have been happening..
life goes on.. life must be lived happily..
well.. i duno.. i'm feeling kinda sad now..
u noe.. jus stuff tat makes ppl sad n depressed..
share a gd news with all of you wan??
i'm sure you do wna noe..
i'm gg to go to kl n genting with dear n her family tmr..
well.. i'm excited.. hope we reali will enjoy ourselves a lot los..
noth matters.. i jus spend some time with my gf!!
noth matters le.. i've not been spending a lot of time with her cause of e wake..
n she's so thoughtful.. came to e wake to accompany me..
i told her not to cause i scared she will be lonely cause of e prayers..
but she said it's okay.. she jus wans to spend time with me..
she even bought herbal tea for me cause i was unwell..
so happy to hear tat laa. this kinda gf where to find los:)
onli one in e whole wide world.. n i'm so glad i've found her..
n to have her in my life n always by my side..
yea.. i'm contented with it..



BABY:
let's not be unhappy anymore..
let's not be quarrel-some anymore..
let's not be stubborn no more..
let's not be petty no more..
let's not be anything tat's bad alright!?
cause noth in this world is as important as YOU!!
onli you lea.. hhaas.. loveyou dear!!










~nic^^

~HAPPY 6MONTHS DEAR!!

happy 6months dear~



woots~ time reali flies.. 6months jus pass in e flash..
in like a blink of an eye!!
hhaas.. reali reali great actually.. enjoy yr company a lot!!
everyday with yoy is reali exciting.. hhaas..
anw, 23august is e big day man..
woke up early in e morn, did my surprise for dear, den ate breakfast..
den went home change bathe n prepare le den went to meet dear..
at woodlands.. hhaas.. once i saw dear, i gave her a big surprise le..
it's FLOWERS!! hhaas.. it's reali nice actually..
den we went to fareast!! hhaas.. went there to find a shop named thinkwhite..
wa.. recommended by TYJ.. thanks..
but e shop was freaking difficult to find laa.. zZz..
like hidden or sth laa.. walked past it also almost din notice laa..
den dear told me.. yea.. den we went in to look..
hhaas.. after talkin for so long, you still duno wad i'm lookin for right?!?
it's rings.. hhaas.. yea.. we looked for sometime..
den finally settled to 2 pairs.. but e one still caught our eyes!!
hhaas.. den asked for e price laa..
wa.. so ex laa.. hhaas.. e salesgal said "wa!! your tastes so gd, chose e 2 most ex rings in e shop"
hhaas.. e 2 we actually took a liking to was e most costly amongst all..
yea.. did e calculations n bought it.. cost a big bomb..
die le.. i'm never gonna let my mum check my posb card.. or i'm so dead:)
hhaas.. it added up to 200bucks laa.. but it's okay laa..
dear so sweet.. she ask me don buy cause too ex le..
but you r my one n onli love lea.. you're priceless la..
so price don reali matter to me.. hhaas..
den after tat we went to sentosa.. at vivo, ate our dinner first..
ramen ten.. ate a ramen called " spicy spicy ramen"
crazy laa.. it reali lives up to it's name laa..
for spicy lovers, please try tat.. i ate till i teared:(
yea.. den bought tidbits n stuff den went to sentosa..
it was drizzling laa.. but we played volleyball.. hhaas..
so fun to play with dear.. but tiring though.. hhaas..
yea.. lots of things laa.. hhaas..
reali had a great day with you baby.. loves*



you reali make me feel as though my live is lived fully..
you always puts me to cloud nine..
wow!! you're great n i'm never gonna live without you..
i'm never gonna find another gf like you ever!!
i'm so gonne treasure you for e rest of my life laa!! :):)
i LOVEYOU, baby..










~nic^^

sat:
hmmm i went out with kf n benson(my bros)
den ate n stuff, took bus to bugis..
ate our dinner den tryin to go haji lane..
wa.. damn diff to find laa..
so nvm.. went to bussorah street..
i noe there better as i went there be4..
hhaas.. den we still took a few wrong advices n got ourselves lost..
den in e end.. finally found it..
went in to sisha.. zZz.. it was bored..
no atmosphere n everythin..
den e fan so strong.. cant do any "Os"
hhaas.. den our drinks..
hhaas.. mine was e best amongst them all..
mine was a yougurt drink mixed with milk..
but it was totally yougurt.. not bad actually..
benson's fresh fruit punch taste like onli watermelon blended..
den kf's tasted like malaysia's chewing gum..
totally disgusting los!! OMG..
anw though din enjoy e sisha.. enjoyed their company..
reali funny(lotsa man talk)
hhaas.. den after tat we went to meet zhi wen..
hhaas.. erm den we pei benson take mrt back to amk..
but kf, zw n me took to yck mrt..
now this festival, my mum banned me from comin back late:(
den we went to buy alcohol n drank at my hse downstairs..
hhaas.. zw so funny.. vommit his whole intestine out..
cause be4 meetin us he drank.. he's friends bday..
drank on an empty stomach..
so he din drink.. me n kf drank onli..
we were smart.. not on empty stomach.. hhaas..
den we all went home..




DEAR:
i'm so sry i couldn't meet you..
as u noe.. my mum now don let me go home late..
no choice.. i missed you lots los..
but at least this e first time i did this onli..
anw, i'm sry.. loveyou k..










~nic^^

OUR LOVELY 5th MONTH:)

HAPPY 5th MONTH LOVE:)

5months have passed in a blink of an eye..

with never ending joys n sorrows..

at least we r always there with each other..

it's great.. had steamboat at marina square..

was okay.. but small portion though..

anw, did many fun things tgt n stuff..

enjoyable.. reali true.. enjoyed it..

sry for this late post:( no time to post things..

yea.. anw, i LOVEYOU ..

life will never be e same w/o you..

~nic^^

things were bad yest.. i have a lot of things to think abt..
hais.. things were not as gd.. certain signs i saw was lyk..
yea.. don reali wna say le.. damn sian to even think abt it..
anw, din noe if i was sad/disappointed/angry/jealous or anythin..
but yea.. din feel gd though.. yea.. things happen here n there..
today was worst also.. things kept runnin through my mind..
many many things.. cant stand it.. why must i have such imagination??
but they r all beyond my reach.. i can do noth to stop wad u r doin..
so mani ppl asked me qns abt sths already.. lyk wad they have seen laa..
ohwell.. din noe how to answer them.. but yea.. still did..
seriously, why cant this thing be fair?? i often think to myself..
it's reali unfair i must say.. but give n take is e key factor i must say..
it will get us far.. ohwells.. i have reali some troubles..
cant seem to get them off my chest.. but i don wna tell any1 abt it..
sigh.. mb keepin it to myself will e best solution yea??
i guess so ba..











walao.. some ppl so childish laa..
now wad century le?? still play spam ah??
hhaas.. so dumb laa.. why cant grow up??
reali think quite highly of herself lea..
zZz.. but it's okays dear..
will be always there for you no matter wad..
hhaas.. loveyou..
it seems lyk i cant live without you for even a sec..










~nic^^

i wonder how long have i not been postin already..
have been busy everyday.. well.. almost i guess..
hhaas.. life have been gd.. except for a few setbacks here n there..
yea.. but still.. love it.. hhaas..
fri: kf was reali devastated with a news.. OMG.. he was reali scary when he is sad..
i've never seen him lyk tat ever be4.. always so cheerful n jokin..
i noe it hit him reali hard.. i mean.. obviously laa!!
hhaas.. but still, bro, u have to let it go n pick yrself up..
at least u still have this bro ma.. hhaas.. i'll not be lyk her..
i will be always here for you!! plz be alright after e deadline u gave us..
a week it shall be yea?? hhaas..


fri, went to have mid-night movie with dar..
watched red cliff.. yea.. it's reali nice i must say..
go catch it if possible yea?!? hhaas..
u will not regret it.. plus so worth yr money..
e duration is reali long los:):)





my gal"
i noe sths cant be said or told..
it doesn't matter..
will be always there for you no matter wad..
i will always be yr listenin ear!!
i will listen to all yr woes..
i will, trust me..
i might seem un-interested, but i am alrights?!?
hhaas.. loveyou lots..
don let lil things get to us alrights?!?
it shall never be yea?!?
let's concentrate on celebrating our 5th month..
steamboat it shall be.. hhaas..
anw havin anythin with u is nice..
n last but not least, don be so stubborn!! :):)
loves*







~nic^^

oral on tues.. aiya.. duno wad to say abt it..
lyk quite diff laa.. omg.. asked abt inflations laa..
wad to say sia?? not much los.. zZz..
there goes my distinction laa..
i wna get at least an a2 los.. now??
duno can not los.. hhaas.. musical..
2 years ago was a lot better..
i noe e ppl involved tried their best too..
they deserve a pat on their backs..
n my bestest GF deserves a round of applause too^^
did a fairly great job as a make-up artist..
hhaas.. anw, last yr de musical din turn out as i wanted it to be..
kinda disappointed.. yea.. but still gd job los..

zj, thanks for e lighter yea??





i've given u my heart n soul..
it's reali uncountable..
it's amount is greater den anythin on earth..
trust me..












~nic^^

heyy baby.. this post is for you..
you noe?? after 2days tat we din meet..
den meetin on sund?? it was a relieve!!
it seems so hard to not miss or think abt you..
jus even for a min, it seems impossible..
don think too much abt wad u have been thinkin of okay?!?
plz.. u noe how much i loveyou yea??
trust me on this.. loveyou loads!!







~nic^^

HAPPY 4TH MONTH, LOVE!!
hhaas.. 4months le!! woots~
let's keep it up love.. hees..
love bein with you.. so fun laa!!
erm yest we went to catch a movie..
"get smart" hhaas.. it's a nice show..
lols.. quite funny n stuff..







it's reali nice jus bein with you my love..
hhaas.. jus with u around.. everythin seems so right..
all seems so in place laa..
loveyou lots!!






~nic^^

my gal~
you noe?!? it's been abt 4 months tat we have been tgt..
u wna noe sth?? it's e best-est n most rewardin part of my life..
i duno.. feel lyk i have reali lived fully for these days..
i feel tat u r a part of me.. u noe.. cant be seperated at all!!
so stuck tgt.. n to tell you, i actually love it a lot!!
it is so great to jus have you by my side all day long..
actually blissful n rewardin i must say.. never been greater!!
life for me in these 4months is reali great!!
never been much better.. i wan this to remain n stay for eternity!!
seriously i'm reali contented for havin you.. best thing tat happened..
i don care if any1 has any negative comments abt you..
u r jus e best to me.. wad they ever tell me will never get into my ear!!
n anw, i doubt there is much ppl with negative comments abt you..
n e trip to www with dear, aunty n her cuzzie was great!!
hhaas.. enjoyed it a lot.. i mean lyk..
everythin i do,it's great jus lyk havin e companionship of mylove..
so, wad more can i ever ask for?!? hhaas..
I JUS LOVE MY GF!! SHE IS E BEST..
U HAVE TO BELIEVE ME ON THIS..


*with lotsa love!!










~nic^^

tues:
went out with kf n benson!! hhaas.. funn n funny ppl..
we all looked lyk gays laa.. for wadever thing we will ever do..
gettin stares n funny looks from e crowd was kinda wierd though..
i don reali care though.. we r all attached already laa!!!
n i m v sure we all treasure it.. at least i noe i do!! hhaas..
ohwells.. we watched narnia.. yea!! i was great.. told by so mani ppl..
especially my gal.. left a v big impact on me though..
yea.. kf had to go to e toilet.. he held onto his bladder n stuff..
hhaas.. was reali funny.. we also did annoy him pretty much though..
den we slack at my hsedownstairs n played ball n stuff..
anw, im certain tat my hse's swimmin pool is great..
for wad i did to benson n kf.. hhaas.. was definately fun..
i had a chance to taste my medicine.. was FUN, BUT!! TIRING INDEED!!
den kf decided to stay at my hse.. zZz.. tmr he wan me to train him in bball..
den we did mani things.. n finally reached my hse at lyk 1120??
it's lyk long since i reached home early laa..
we did our stuff n when we were playin cards!! there's a roach which ran out..
OMG.. first time my hse got roach laa..
damn scary.. somemore e roach played with kf's leggss.. hhaas..
so funny de lors.. den we went to eat supper at 2plus gg3..
went home at 4?? den slacked den fell aslp le..




gal:
for this past 2days tat i din c you..
i have been missing u lyk a lot a lot..
i swear i will definately treasure u a lot!!
anw, will be meetin soon already.. hhaass..
loves* xOxOxO









~nic^^

sat.. had a rather relaxed day at home n stuff..
den went to meet zj n jy.. went to pool a while onli..
quite unlucky today i suppose?? all my balls were off..
anw, after tat went to meet dear.. den went to her hse stay..
enjoyed e time spent tgt.. rather heartwarming..
den woke up le.. slack n stuff till quite late..
den we went to have dinner.. hmm a stupid thing happened to me at northpoint..
2 stupid ppl.. zZz.. anw, tat's not e point..
i m tired.. i nd a rest.. i nd it.. i m not feeling well..
tata.. wna go rest le bahs..



DEAR:
this post specially written for you de..
cause u say i v long din blog le..
loves*








*reali disheartened*









~nic^^

alrights.. there r jus too mani things happenin..
hhaas.. lazy to say them out.. anw, it's all nice..
erm i have been spendin lotsa time with my love..
hhaas.. it's reali nice n relaxin laa.. love this lifestyle..
reali cant imagine living without you in my life..
dear i loveyou lots!! hhaas..
erm anw, for e past mani days..
dear n me have brought her dogs for walks..
n it's kinda fun makin them playin with e slides..
hhaas.. reali funny too.. rewardin as well i suppose??
have been reachin home at abt 1plus a bit everyday..
tiring, but reali love it.. spendin time tgt with dear is e best..
woots~ anw, thurs went out with kf n benson to marina square there..
ate hong kong cafe for dinner.. was alrights bahs..
den we went to walk abt.. joked n stuff.. quite fun..
den walk halfway den we all decided to go play pool..
play till 10plus den sytop le.. in e mrt tat time even funnier los..
i keep makin benson.. till he cant reali stand it laa..
reali funny.. hhaas.. den after tat went to meet dear..













~nic^^

i m back to blogg more..
anw, had bball camp in sch on thurs..
hhaas.. was a v tiring day.. but was kinda fun..
had bbq at night, n for once..
i din do a single shit lors.. v cool..
played bball in e dark n stuff.. quite cool..
den went to bathe n stuff.. went back le..
half e ppl were wearin boxers to slp..
but i was e onli 1 who had special attention from every1..
they teased me as monster n stuff.. ass lors..
anw, i ignored it n went to play card outside..
at a bench.. played till at abt 2plus..
den aaron told us he saw sth dirty.. we din c though..
den we continued till abt 15 mind ltr?? aaron n i saw it tgt this time..
omg.. din noe whyy we saw it laa.. but we were quite scared actually..
den aaron n i saw ma.. den jun chai crazy de.. din c so v curious lyk tat..
we went to talk around parts of sch ma..
den we went to forth floor, sit at e pavement lyk tat..
next time e female toilet n staircase there.. den ah..
it was v spooky.. played there a while den we sat down talk..
half way, jun chai saw a wierdest thing on earth..
v scary lors.. den he was v shocked n scared..
den we went down back to second story..
at tat time was abt 4plus le.. den we continued wasting time n stuff lors..
was fun la.. hhaas.. thought saw wad we should no have laa.






DEAREST GAL:
hhaas.. havin loads of fun with u always..
hope u think so too k? hhaas..
anw, yest was noth de.. don think too much k??
srry ya?? i missyou lots..







~nic^^

omg.. my blogg.. im gonna pump blood into u soon ya?!?
nowadays lyk always v busy lyk tat lors..
anw, spend my bday with my dearest gal..
it wad fun, love.. don worry ya?? it was great.. jus short time onli..
anw, i got too many things to say n stuff till i duno where to begin..
so i jus write abt a few days bahs..
hmmm yest was lyk super bad.. had maths remedia den bio..
bio was kinda borin though.. cause i was tired n e air-conditioned room was great!!
yea.. anw, after tat i went to meet kf n benson..
kf bought a phone.. n after meetin them n do my stuff den i went to meet my gal..
den after tat we took her dogs out for a walk..
n guess wad?? it was late le.. so we decided to go back le..
den guess wad?? i dropped my phone into e lake..
damn sad la.. jus got my phone in lyk 2mnth plus onli la..
n stuff la.. its sad to lose my phone la.. but saw sth far worst den tat..
actually i couldn't believe it de la.. but wad it is.. it is a fact..
so yea.. got depressed n stuff lors.. yea.. but wadeva la..
i duno wad i m supposed to do, say n stuff la..
i will jus keep mum la i suppose..




my dear:
i have spent so much time with u these few weeks n stuff lors..
its reali great.. im sure n v v certain abt tat..
i love u lots.. talk abt u in e next post..
loveyou my dear..




~nic^^

fuck it la.. my day today jus sucks big time la..
sigh.. first, go ss remedia.. latest to go in.. nvm..
next, get caught for slpin inside.. den ltr tio kb..
wtf la.. wad is her fuckin prob la.. nb lors..
come in n said " imagine e whole world lyk nicholas"
i was lyk thinkin la.. at least e world will have better ppl right??
at least better den havin tat ass arnd.. wad a waste of our scarce resources..
think abt it.. for her to take transport.. she will probably take e bus with 10more of her..
while its for a bus of 30.. think abt e amount of fuel they have to use??
limited resource cant be waste on her jus lyk tat..
omg.. i have lots more to grumble actually la..
but i mean i will not do it here.. how i cant stand her..
e sight of her jus irritates me so horribly tat i will have nightmares..
jus by thinkin of how she tore e skirt she wore today jus makes me giggle..
every1 must have its limits.. don try to squeeze into sth u cant n tear it..
n in turn make a bloody fool out of yrself.. it jus makes so mani ppl's day..
i hear 100times more complain of her instead of some compliments..
how sad but true.. SHE DESERVES IT..
in my whole life.. she is e onli teach is is so screwed up..
wad a failure in life i must say.. keep boasting abt o levels marker shit..
ohwells.. i shall stop here le.. cant stand it anymore..
n jus to add on to it.. i had reali bad gastric after recess till 3..
damn sucks.. but thanks my dear for buyin me panadol..
though she forced me to eat it la.. but reali loveyou.. thanks..
den all e buses i wait for took so long to come.. late for everythin lors..






hmmm i dunoo why i did tat my dear..
my mood jus changed.. some reasons i suppose..
but i also duno why i reacted to it this way..
its wierd.. reali reali wierd la.. don reali understand..
thanks for caring abt me so much.. loves*
thanks for stayin close by me.. sigh..
but im not feeling alright today.. reali not gd..















~nic^^

went out on sat to have dinner..
it was reali not worth its price..
i mean.. even foodcourt stuff r much better..
duno why it cost lyk a bomb..
but anyway, enjoyed everythin..
n i mean EVERYTHIN.. but e stayover was best of course..
hhaas.. slept at lyk 630?? 12plus wake up..
hmmm den spent more time tgt..
den in e end i went home at abt 5??
reali enjoyed everythin.. reali enjoy my time with u..
everythin passes so fast.. i mean..
we stayed up lyk for so long la..
n we were not tireed.. OMG.. so cool yea??
apart from e fact tat we were havin fun.. its reali nice..
erm had meesiam in such heat.. OMG..
but of course at least with u arnd everythin seems right..
n aunty, hope u lyk e gift from us.. hhaas..






hey baby, i noe somethings r lyk.. yea..
but u noe.. u have reali became a part of me le..
a part which can never be removed..
its never gg to be.. i will treasure u..
a lot a lot.. lyk there's no tmr okay?!?
i never gonna abandon u.. don worry.. trust me alrights?!?








~nic^^

hhaas.. exams have been borin.. cant stand it..
anw, sat tonned at mac with dear..
hhaas.. fun de lors.. tiring also though..
slept e next day for abt 2hours plus 3 onli..
OMG.. slept so little tat day.. hhaas..
erm anw, monday was sj de bday.. happy bday to her..
lols.. anw sj's bday is e best.. i mean e day la..
not because i celebrated with her.. lols..
i was with my lovely gal.. hmmm we kinda talked??
i mean talk heart to heart.. talked abt some of e past??
n stuff bahs.. ohwell.. talks lyk tat r gd..
brings us closer tgt de.. hhaas.. trust me baby..
u will always be in my heart<3>
noth is gg change tat fact.. lols..
n thanks for some reassurerance.. its greatly appreciated..
hmmm n sry for bein a little crazy tat day..
but.. i m not lyk other guys..
erm tmr is labour day le..
gg celebrate my grandmother's bday le..
n guess wad?!? dear is comin.. hhaas..
this week lyk got so mani activities..
sat also gonna attend dinner.. but scared lehs..
afraid i will do sth wrong or sth.. hope noth goes wrong..
hhaas.. still got last 2papers left onli:)









~nic^^

WOOTS!! a blink of an eye, n its our second month le:):)
lols.. first up, i gotta thank you my dear..
for e lovely present u gave to me.. hhaas..
love it a lot.. lols.. c le i was so touched lors..
n thanks for e lovely card u wrote for me..
hhaas.. hope u love my present too^^
gorilla LOVES piggy..
hhaas.. this will always be a v sweet memory..
tat is engraved deep into my heart..
n it will never be removed ever..


the dinner at ichiban was great..
e food was not bad.. plus most importantly,
i have u by my side all e time:):)
thanks a lot love..
onli tat we din get enough time tgt yest..
but its okay.. treasured e time we had tgt..





i will be there for u always..
i will hold yr hand n stroll all through e beach..
sit under an oat tree n enjoy e brightest moon ever..
will be always there for u when u nd me^^








~nic^^

its been lyk 21hours le..
u said u will do it.. but u din..
i duno wad to do.. i have been waitin for it to appear..
but not once yr name appeared..
but i don wna say anythin..
i don wna give u a feeling tat i m always behind yr back..
v annoying n stuff.. i don lyk to be..
i wna give u space.. though i never had this feeling be4..
at all!! i never have had this kinda v fan lyk tat de feeling..
i reali hate this feeling.. it makes me jus lose all my little confidence i have..
m i a total failure?? u nd space right??
i will give it to u.. i will never expect anythin much..
though i never had.. i will be as lose as u wan me to be..
though tat might not be me anymore..
but if u lyk it.. i will give it to u..
when i read wad u sent yest.. i duno reali got stunned..
i stood rooted to e ground for sometime..
be4 benson woke me up from tat state..
i din tell him why.. i jus kept quiet..
feeling so lost n confused.. i duno was it from a fit of anger??
or wad.. but i will jian tao myself de..
this 21hours plus past, was v miserable..
couldn't stop thinkin.. feel so terrible..
wad do u reali wan from me?? r i tat bad??
m i reali never gd enough for u??
am i?? am i?? am i??
sigh.. i hate this feeling.. makes me feel real lousy..
i have many things i wna tell u..
i reali do.. i can sit down with u to chat 4ever..
is this wad u reali wan??
i will wait, lyk wad u wanted me to do yest..
u told me u will do tat ltr on.. but till now..
i still cant get my phone to make me read a thing tat brightens up my dull life today..
don have to say anythin.. mb a blank 1 might do..
with yr name on it.. i will be v much satisfied..
i never meant wad i always lyk to say abt u..
i onli tryin to play with u onli..
it means noth else lors.. i don think so u r too..
i missyou a lot a lot a lot.. noth can describe tat feeling..





















~nic^^

wed, after sch dear came to my hse..
hhaas. she was kinds sick..
i wna do my job as her bf to take care of her..
hhaas.. guess wad?!? i cooked for her okays?!?
its so cool.. hhaas.. haven reali cooked for my gf be4..
i cooked spegetti for her to eat..
i was so scared tat it wasn't nice..
but she said tat was nice..
duno its to encourage me de or real de..
but i eat think tat it tasted okays..
i first cook cant expect so much ma..
hhaas.. enjoyed yr company my gal..
hhaas.. den later at abt 8plus we studied..
cool right?!? did productive work lors..
little time but did a lot..





thurs, i waited for dear for dance..
wanted to work with joshua in class de..
did a bit.. den he wanted to play catchin with me n mubarak..
sounds childish right?!? but its damn fun lors!!
hhaas.. tired after playin tat..
den while waitin for e time to pass, we played hangman..
tat was reali fun also.. hhaas..
so lucky.. joshua got to meet sj in e end also..
hhaas..



dear:
dear.. it was okay abt it okay??
don worry.. i m not reali angry or wad okays?!?
so don worry.. hhaas.
loves*









~nic^^

wonder why m i back so early?!?
hhaas.. actually supposed to meet my gal..
but she is sick.. so cant come out..
another day without her.. hais.. feel so sad lors..
hmmm but no choice.. get well soon alrights my dear..
i noe u r sick.. but i am so sry tat i cant be by yr side right now..
u have to take lotsa care alright?!? faster recover..
i wna c u soon:( e days i cant see u r so miserable!!
i cant stand it anymore.. ohwell..
i MISSYA!! i LOVEYA!! :):)















~NIC^^

after we checked out already den we took cab back to ian de hse..
he put things den i went home le.. nd go back.. prepare to meet dear le..
went back did my compo first.. do till alomost fall aslp lors..
dead tired.. hhaas.. den went to far east meet benson,ian n yk a while first den went to meet dear le.. hmmm we went to heeren to go num(new urban male)
i wanted to look at e slippers.. so look n stuff den in e end..
wanted to catch a movie with dear de.. but no slot..
onli have a slot at 1plus at cine.. den 10 de at amk hub..
so in e end din watch.. took bus back to amk..
but guessed wad?!? i fell aslp in her "arms" den passed amk..
she said i was lyk v peaceful slpin n looked so tired so din wna wake mi up..
so we alighted in hougang.. den bought bubble tea..
n bus-ed back to amk again.. den i sent dear back..
tired us.. hhaas.. fell aslp in e bus tgt.. den in e end i went back at 1040??
dear v funny.. said wanted to send mi home.. cause scared i fall aslp in bus..
den in e end get down at e last stop at harbour front how??
hhaas.. cute hoh?!? i was also afraid la.. but i sent her home le den went home le..
reached at abt 11plus a bit.. msged while i watched soccer with dad..
man-u VS arsenal.. hhaas.. first half so bored, so mi n dear went to slp le..
guess wad?!? man-u won!! yay!! my fav. team lehs!! cool..



dear:
hhaas.. i reali enjoyed e time we spend tgt..
hmmm u take off all my troubles..
make mi e carefree man.. n paint my world so colourful..
WOOTS!! simply jus <3>U!!









~nic^^

den sat morn, woke up den after tat did wad i need in e morn..
came back into e chalet le den they wanted to go eat breakfast..
so we went to eat.. not all went.. but a lot went..
den ate le den come back at 121plus le..
blasted e speakers n stuff n it was 3plus le..
den they went to swim n play soccer..
i din want to play n swim.. so stayed in e chalet with some others..
hhaas.. den in e end keith came back le.. he asked me pei him buy food..
den buy le in e end bought a pair of shorts.. zZz.. siao de.. buy shorts in chalet..
keith bought a shirt.. den we went back to e chalet..
den in e evenin, we went to rent bikes.. hhaas..
den mi, ian, jude n yk went for a ride.. den came back at 8??
den eat le at 8plus gg 9.. hhaas.. we had so much commotion on top..
we took turns to play.. we all kana whacked by pillows n bedsheets n stuff..
kahyong, as usual got stripped to his last piece again..
cause he disturb ppl ma.. den he kana la..
slacked n stuff lors.. den went to buy supper with friends..
den we chiong so fast.. den pass by police car.. we passed traffic lights when its red..
den we had illegal items.. i held it in my hands somemore..
den i saw e person stare at me.. so scared sia. lols..
den we faster buy our things.. buy le den go back chalet..
den in e end, eaten le v thirsty.. went with aaron, yk n arvi to 711 in whitesands..
buy n drank le den we rode back.. on e way back, aaron n arvi brought mi n yk to a v scary place tat they discovered.. it was lyk a bridge.. den lyk go in a bit den cant c e things infront le..
den we went back to our chalet, n got kinda lost for a while..
back le, wanted to go red house de.. den in e end din..
they go till sian le.. so in e end chatted upstairs..
chat till in e end fell aslp.. yk so pitifel lors.. 4 person in e bed de..
den in e end he say they squeezed each other den i squeezed him, den he no choice..
no space slp so went down to slp again..
e bed was comfortable for me.. mb cause i super lack of slp la..
4plus den slp le.. den slept till earty in e morn den woke up..















~nic^^

after sch on fri!! went home quickly..
came home still nd pack my stuff to go chalet!!
hhaas.. but in e end!! ended up usin comp=.=
den after tat chatted till 3plus den went to go bathe..
bathe den faster went to pack my things..
hhaas.. packed quite a lot of things into my bag..
n it was definately super fat!! i din noe why so fat..
den after tat went to meet benson,zw,yk,melissa n sy..
hhaass. den we started on our long journey to downtown east!!
hhaas. we alighted den ian went out to pick us up..
den we went back into e chalet le..
okays la e chalet.. not v big.. but not v small either..
den we started e whole night.. ate food, partied n stuff..
hhaas.. den it was lyk 14plus already..
e first group of ppl went home le.. den some of us went to cheers..
hhaas.. went there to buy some alcohol..
we bought jim bean n 2 more.. hhaas..
den we bought some soft drinks to mix..
den we started out drinkin session already..
hhaas.. mi n yk in a group.. hmmmm any1 challenge us, both drink..
hhaas.. we steady de.. must stick tgt!!
hmmm ian started by challengin zhiwei..
hhaas.. ian put both cups half full of alcohol first..
crazy de lors.. ian drink le noth happened..
but zhiwei drank le.. got effect le.. hhaas..
face so damn red lors!! lyk duno wad crazy drunken guy..
hhaas.. though he drank some jus now already, he was drunk already..
lols.. den e second person ian challenged was yk n mi liao..
siao de right?!? hhaas.. but we set de.. we drank..
den we ate tidbits n stuff n chatted lots of shit..
hhaas.. den we ended this session at abt 2plus when e alcohol finished..
actually i was prepared to get drunk le..
but in e end i din even got giddy..
maybe slightly for a while onli..
i drank abt 6-7 cups?? not a lot la..
in e end yk n mi went for a walk..
we walked n stuff cause we tio complain letter..
den after tat ppl drunk n stuff, v noisy..
den we walked abt half an hour den came back there..
den aaron was first to vomit!! it was damn style..
he vomitted 5 times..
e first time was okayy.. i wanted to go to him to pat his backk..
in e end e second round came!! he vomitted lyk a runnin tap!!
oh man.. it was bloody cool.. best vomit video of e year la!!
den we went to collect water to wash away..
lucky it wad outside lors.. den e vomitted e other 3times on e grass..
it was abt 4?? den weihao, keith mi n others send siaotong n beeying to take cab..
den we went back.. den more ppl vomitted la.. mi n yk noth wrong..
den talked n stuff.. slept at abt 5 lyk tat.. den 7plus woke up le..
not much space to sleep.. got 30plus ppl there la..












~nic^^

hmmm we had nafa test today for e boys..
n btw HAPPY BDAY IAN!!
I SO SUAY LORS.. after sch liao..
went to canteen for lunch be4 headin to class..
mr fam gave us hwk to do ma..
hhaas. den i bought my food le.. waitin for it..
den ian kana smashed by cake in e face..
den he wna make benson de.. but benson run away..
den he wna chase him de.. den saw me instead..
den he said i haven wished his happy bday hoh??
which i already did la.. but i jus shook his hand again..
den he so evil la.. come n use his face to bua(rub) my face..
ass right?!? wa sian lors.. i kana my neck there..
den went to wash lors.. hhaas.. so oily lors.. diffi to wash away..
but no choice.. hhaas. looks lyk ian enjoyed his bday today..
den went back class to do work.. den went to hall liao..
first event for nafa for my class is sit&reach lors..
stretched to duno wad la.. 4got le.. den got A..
hhaas. den we went to pull-up station liao..
look at my class ppl dp.. got stressed..
den somemore got so mani ppl lookin n stuff..
when i did, classmates n andy cheered.. thanks a lot!!
andy so ass.. say wad.. if never do 8 don come down hoh!!
den i do till 8 den i come down liao..
no strength liao.. anw 8 also A le.. happy..
hhaas.. jiayu n joshua also did 8.. all got 8 tgt..
hhaas.. den went to do standin broad jump..
i don lyk doin it.. not v gD in it!! sian..
first jump.. 250 plus.. happy!! but ms chew din c..
so had to re-do.. den i landed v hard on my heels..
so painful sia.. yest injured le.. today injured even worst..
den onli can jump 230.. so i got B for this event..
sian lors.. den waited for shuttle run.. since v long..
we did sit ups first.. i did 55.. actually did onli 54..
den i think again.. 54 not nice number, so did 55 instead=.=
crazy right?!? lyk tat determine de.. zZz.. got A..
den went to do shuttle run..
heels so pain tat walk also gt prob.. still nd run!!
den my first turn, i slipped lors.. so re-do again..
den second try i got 9.7 i think.. got A for it..
hhaas.. finally finished le.. heels hurt lyk mad.. ohwell..
yea.. den after tat i went down to play ball with friends..
play till 720 lyk tat den kana chased out.. not bad le..
din noe play till so late le.. den after tat we went to slack at e mama shop..
a while onli.. while drinkin soft-drinks..
thirsty.. hhaas.. den i saw dear's msg.. SO DELIGHTED..
ohwell.. den v tired.. den came home le..
feeling so wierd now.. easily irritated.. pissed for noth..
jus feelin v wierd.. ohwell.. btw i got 29/30 for nafa..
wanted to get full marks instead de.. but cant la..
nvm.. think this yr i got e 3years consecutively gold award le..



cant have u by my side physically now..
feeling kinda lost.. ohwell..
but i can feel u accompanying me emotionally..
at least i noe i have u by my side..


















~nic^^

went to kpool with kf.. haha..
den in e end cant find ian they all..
so we played pool in e end..
haha.. no idea why also.. but..
jus play lors.. played for abt an hr den ian they all come n play also..
haha.. but din play tgt.. but when we stop le..
we chatted with them n stuff..
den in e end i was dragged to play lan=.=
i don dota de la.. but ask me jus go play..
zZz.. so wierd.. ohwell.. haha..
play le den went back to kpool again..
den i was tired.. so i jus sat down n watch them play..
den suddenly kf told mi gabriel callin mi..
haha.. den he ask mi play.. lols..
play play play den late le..
den went home after tat..
super tired.. faster go home rest..










dear:
yea.. mr ong is super understandin de lors..
so don worry abt it.. we will prove it to em de la..
so no worries ya?!? :):)















~nic^^

3 april 2008:)
haha.. today had pe.. nd to run 2.4..
its e actual test!! sounds so scary la..
but its still okay la.. haha..
finished runnin.. my timin is abt 1040??
lousy right?!? ohwell..
no choice also.. joshua beat mi as usual..
haha.. he sucker de.. always make mi get second in class..
cause of him la.. haha.. so fast de..
hmmm wna noe something funny?!?
i had pe supplementary sia!! lame right?!?
but actually finish le its fun la can?!?
at night de pe quite fun..
no sun, inside hall somemore!! so its nice!!
hmmm den after tat rushed to meet dear..
din noe she waited for mi for so long.. im so so sry!!
haha.. loves*













4 april 2008
today went to sch in e morn.. was in assembly..
den suddenly nita told mi mr ong called mi..
den i was lyk.. OH SHIT, WAD DID I DO?!?
haha den he told mi not to worry.. jus wna talk to mi..
den he told me tat he noe wad is happening..
n say tat its okay as long as i can manage it well..
haha.. he also say don let it affect my results..
n especially my "O" levels.. mr ong so caring hoh?!?
haha.. yea!! i think so too.. lols..
den i told him don worryy.. noth will happen de..
we will study hard de.. noth will go wrong de..
lols.. den he say gD.. den i went back le..




u went off without even sayin gDbye..
i din even noe u go le.. ohwell..
pretty sad abt it.. ohwell..












~nic^^

wa!!! i m feelin such lyk an idiot!!
OMG!! I ACTUALLY GOT FOOLED!!
lyk an idiot on april fool's day.. man!!
can't believe it still la.. wtf man..
haha.. believe mi.. havin too much trust also no use..
lols!! i saw ian de msn nick!! he said..
why benson got whacked no1 told him!!
den i c liao i so bloody shocked!!
i ask him.. den i calll benson!!
den asked wad happned..
den he also say e same thing..
den i was lyk.. ask him rmb who ma..
den can call ppl down to tio back..
zzz.. OMG.. i angry at tat time le la..
den i tellin ian n kf.. wtf la..
den in e end tell mi april fool's joke..
lame siol.. right?!? omg la..
make mi so worked up for noth!!
zzz.. next time benson reali kena whacked i don care..
haha.. anw!! he beta careful.. or tml i sure whack him de..














~nic^^

yea.. suddenly received a text from yj..
yea.. at 4plus?? i 6plus den reply.. psps..
c liao so fuckin pissed la.. not with yj..
but with e content tat a particular person wrote la..
yea.. so pissed.. haha.. n yj so funny.. keep askin mi chill..
don worry i will be okay de.. im jus so sad n stuff lors..
last time mi n him so gD now lyk duno wad fuck lyk tat..
c wad he say i also so fuckin disappointed lors..
wad can i do?? also noth.. relationships nd a long time to build..
but it onli takes a stupid matter or day to blow it all off..
ohwell.. its true lors.. i have experienced it lors!!
been through so much tgt.. gotten canned n stuff tgt..
but ya.. wad u wan n said is all rubbish & so childish la..
wadeva la can?!? ohwell.. noe so much more after tat talk..
n i also told u alot of things as well..
haha.. gD for us.. we both also got things to gain..













~nic^^

haha.. long time no blogg le:)
lyk no time lyk tat..
hmmm sat went out with dear to study..
den she studied a bit den play my psp liao..
haha.. but she also did her work okay?!?
bravos!! she din noe how to do a super simple sum:)
so funny lors!! hmmmm den in e end,i sent her home..
n chatted downstairs.. talked till 1220plus den i left..
haha.. din feel lyk gg home.. so went to kf hse to ton..
haha.. had a lot of fun bro~~ crappin so much..
n somemore a little secret we have in e playground!!
dear!! u noe don tell any1 k?!? haha.. not even a single soul..
so embarrasing la!! =.= haha.. so shHhhhhhhHH okays??
lols.. watched a super funny video..
sex is zero!! super duper funny n hillarious!!
don watch it if u r faint hearted.. it's v sexual..
hmmm anyway took pics with dear tat day..
lols.. i never post sia.. u all go her blogg c la:):)
lols.. i lyk helpin to advertise her blogg lyk tat lors..
ohwell slept at 6plus tat day n woke up at lyk 11?!?
sleep so little lors.. but went home still got sleep 1hr plus..




dear:
haha.. i noe tat it changes v quickly..
its always lyk a tornado or mother nature's disasters..
come so unexpectedly n with massive force n destruction!!
but ohwell.. its ok.. sometimes i also will de..
ohwell.. jus feel so sad now..
hp n psp.. jus lyk a bane of my life or sth lors..
ohwell.. its okay i guess..
kinda used to it already so im okay..
jus feel so hurt at times.. but e feeling..
u wont ever understand.. disappointment..
ohwell.. it's okay my dear gal..
loveya lots!! <3<3















~nic^^